They say divorce is worse than death. They say time heals all wounds. They say hindsight is 20/20. They say a lot of things, most I have found to be true. In the Summer of 2010 I was eight months pregnant, happily married, and had it all figured out. Then it all fell apart. I fell apart. They also say life goes on. It does, and it goes on with or without you. So this is me going on, moving on, and keeping on. Picking up the pieces of a broken heart and broken life and finding out how to put them back together.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Lucky Girl

Although, I've been through hell on earth in the past 7 months I am a very lucky girl! I have a whole list of reasons why I consider myself blessed beyond belief!

1. I have God. He loves me unconditionally and will never leave me.
2. I have two amazing children who light up when I walk in the room. I was put on this earth to be a mom and now I am fortunate enough to be one.
3. I was in love and I was loved. I don't regret one second with Paul. I loved him completely. He made me happy. Happier than I thought I could be. He made me feel beautiful, like I was the only woman in the world. We had a wonderful marriage. He was a devoted husband and father until last summer. I was very lucky to have him in my life while I did. I will always be grateful to him for the time we shared and the two gorgeous babies he gave me.
4. I have a home waiting for me.
5. I learned a valuable lesson. I'm not sure if there will ever be someone else, but I know with out a shadow of a doubt no man will ever do this to me again. I'm older and wiser. If there is a next guy, bless his heart, he don't stand a chance. And friends....well I know to choose them more carefully and trust them much less.
6. I have a second chance, a new beginning, and a fresh start. You can't go wrong with those things.
7. NO MORE TITANS JUNK IN MY HOUSE! :)
8. I can sleep on either side of the bed and leave the tv on all night.
9. I'm a sucker for a boy in boots....not Jordans.
10. Baseball is back on the tv.
11. More room on the DVR for my shows.
12. More closet space.
13. I have proven to myself that I am strong. Though all the issues with my mother and her problem I adopted her way of thinking. I was weak. I "couldn't handle" stressful situations. HA! How's this for a stressful situation?!? I am not my mother. I got my daddy's strength, I just never knew it.
14. I'm hard headed as they come. I'm half Jones. Tell me I can't and I'll prove to you I can.
15. I have plenty of family and friends to remind me of these things if I forget! :)
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2 comments:

  1. shinaMarch 3, 2011 at 7:07 PM

    I am VERY proud of you April. You have become a much stronger person than you used to be!!! I always knew you were!!! You are doing an amazing job at being the mother Reese and Carson need and deserve. You know your goals now all you have to do is accomplish them!!! Even though they are hour to hour or day to day they are still goals and you are achieving them!!! School will be completed before you know it!!! Wifey and Aunt Shina is ALWAYS here!!! I love yall very much!!! Keep up the awesome work!!! Continue to put GOD first and HE will see you through!!!

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  2. RuthMarch 4, 2011 at 7:46 PM

    I am glad you are now finding some positives to the whole situation.
    School will be over before you know it and the kids you teach will be better for having you as their teacher.

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